The illusion of being stuck

I arrived a month ago, and I already feel stuck. I haven't even finished the first level of German yet, but I still feel stuck—it’s like nothing is moving forward, and the fact that it's only been a month frustrates me a lot.

I wish I could speak fluent German, understand it, get a job here, and be able to relax a little more. I'm in a constant state of alertness and survival mode, which is exhausting. However, everything is going according to plan. It's only the first month and all the bureaucratic paperwork is already done (it was easier than I thought). I can legally work now—though job hunting is hard in any country—and I’ve more or less put together a routine. So, everything is fine, but it gives me anxiety that the process is so slow.

At the same time, when I really think about it, I don't know if it's actually possible for me to learn German any faster. I mean, I have classes from Monday to Thursday, 3 hours a day, and I always end up completely exhausted and overwhelmed, so I don't know if I'm even capable of learning faster. German is a complicated language on its own, but when it's the third language your brain is trying to learn, the mix-up of words in your head is incredible and so confusing. At times, I "forget" words in Spanish, or things just come out in Spanish and I can't translate them into English.

There’s another major factor: I'm learning a language from scratch as an ADULT. I started learning English when I was four years old and studied until I was about 22. In other words, I studied English my whole life; it was just part of my day-to-day. Because of that... I don't have the slightest memory of what it's like to learn a language from scratch, and I think it's much easier to learn a new language as a child than as an adult.